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Friday, February 04, 2011

I miss you so damn much, my blogville! :-*

And yeah, I’m so so so so so sorry for ignoring you in the last few (months?). It’s my final-assignment, you know that, don’t you? :D

I’ve been too busy giving too much care and love to my sweet little confusing thing called SKRIPSI. For your information, I’m getting crazy day by day. All those stuffs are just exhausting! I’m overwhelmed, really. :-(

During the very early year, January, I gave away my full concern to something that, you know, inconsequential, trifling, and piddling, something called “comprehensive exam”. Ooohh, I have taken this kind of frustrating exam for THREE times, you know. And I didn’t pass it for THREE times too. Pathetic, isn’t it? Yeah, awfully, incredibly, extremely, perfectly, and abso-f*cking-lutely PATHETIC. *sigh*

At some point in time, I started giving up. I really did, when I faced the truth that I didn’t pass it (again) for the third time. It felt like you have been climbing a hill, tied yourself firmly to a sturdy bridle, watched your every single step precisely, and even practiced your ability of climbing, like EVERYDAY, and then you just slipped down with the fact that your bridle wasn’t strong enough to hold you up there, and then you fell down so damn extremely, quite, and tremendously, far away off the route. You kept falling and you have no idea where to land safely, and when you finally landed, you found that the site was rough, brisk, and prickly. And you started bleeding and got some very serious deep-injuries, but there were no medical treatment to heal your wounds. So what were you gonna do? Me? CRIED, all night long.

Ok, I know that you may think that my way to analogize my feeling is too dramatic, striking, and regarding drama. But it really was. It felt like something torn my heart harshly.

But, lucky me, I had too many great friends! They kept supporting me to gain my spirit back. They kept telling me that I shouldn’t give up, but conversely, I should put more efforts to pass it. And that’s it. That’s the cure. Yeah, they are my cure. :-)

Thanks, besties :-*

Now, I’m studying (hardly) to pass my next comprehensive exam that will be held on February 10, 2011. I want you to pray for me too :p. And I give you a lot of thanks and kisses here :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-* :-*

There is something I have learned from these whole things. We all, as human beings, should put maximum efforts on something we want to achieve in life, and it must be followed by something called prayer, and then give the rest to God. But there is a sufficient plus necessary condition at once that you should complete to make it perfect: “You have to believe that God always loves you and will give you the best, no matter what. Not ‘the best’ in your opinion, but ‘the best’ in God’s point of view.”

So, have a great life, everyone! :-)